Ok, I’ll admit it. I’m a bit at a loss. I’ve written lots of words. I think it’s coming together quite well. I’ve asked one or two people to give it a read and tell me if it makes sense. What do I do next?
I’m not going to approach an agent or publisher, as far as I can tell they all want me to 1. evaluate the competition (what competition? I’m not taking part in a race); 2. write an evaluation of my own book, an overview, a blurb, a biography… it goes on; 3. tell them what it’s genre/category (and dewy decimal number, not really) should be; 4. create a web presence with a following of thousands (sure, I have nothing else to do and a budget of millions… not.).
I’m not sure what they’re offering me in return, but as far as I can tell the only thing they’ve got, that I might want access to, is a distribution network. Like I said, I’ll pass. I’ll go for what used to be called the “vanity press”, it’s now more flatteringly called “self publishing”.
I have to say I find the whole idea intimidating, but I didn’t write all those words just to leave them on my computer. I admit I wrote them for me. I wrote them because I wanted to get straight in my mind about what I dislike about the world the way it is, and how I feel we could make it better.
I’d love to change the world. I don’t expect to. I’d be chuffed to blazes if I helped one person feel better about themself. Even more thrilled if one person started to explore permaculture because of me.
We are all small pieces of a large jigsaw. We can maybe cause a small change in the jigsaw pieces that touch ours. In other words, we can only influence as far as the reach of our arm. I’d love to create a small ripple, to add to the ripples created by the people I admire. So that between all of us, in our own unique ways, we can cause a tidal wave to change the way society is.
So, one more book to read that challenges the status quo, one more contribution to a possible alternative culture. Just another pebble on the beach.